I realize see and understand its my choice that I connect my interpretation as the result of my observation. Because What I see, became what i get. What I Thereafter hear as my inner voice, reflects what already exist. Which is the acceptance and allowance, the result of what pops-up within my mind.
For context see my previous post.
Sometimes the mind seems so graphically so strong that it seems like it’s not just thoughts. It can go about bad thoughts, for example, the idea that someone could do something bad. Or thought what it’s like to jump infront of a train. Or the urge to do something shameful as insult your boss or take off your clothes in public. It may be a sexual thought, a thought or a perverse idea of extreme violence. It can also be a thought about a loved one that something happens to, or a thought of destroying something of another.
Almost all people have some thoughts.
So in the light of my inner voice, I judged the observation of my environment and the peoples behavior within. In response of my spoken Appreciation to the group members during a supportgroup meeting, I spoke about that I was thankfull for those who helped me during moving away from my place into a new home.
That’s why I experienced some of their comments as negative. Which is theirs opinion that I have not expressed my thanks enough, which I did. I realize see and understand on the other hand their wishfull thinking also reflex the lack of the expectation that they missed.
In response of my spoken Appreciation they feeled not appreciated enough by me.
So, in response of the experience about my lack my thoughts pops-up. According of there unfulfilled wishes, I experienced the energy of being critized and guilty because of my lack of showed Appreciation to Them. Their behavior Which I see as a form of critical meanness.
However: ‘I realize see and understand All this is caused by my assumption Whatever I do I never do well enough, people always criticize me, which makes me feel guilty and disappointed.’ Physically and behaviorally I behave with avoidance (not go out). It seems like I have things under control but often I get new problems.Than feel lonely for example and my day is full of rituals.
Selfforgiveness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking: ‘Whatever I do I never do well enough, people always criticize me, which makes me feel guilty and disappointed.’
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experienced comments as a form of critical meanness.
If and when I experience the energy of critical meanness, Then I Stop myself and Breath.
I realize see and understand that my interpretation about the comments from people made me aware that I give this the critical meanness meaning.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I give the response From someone the critical meanness meaning.
If and when I experience the energy of critical meanness meaning, Then I Stop myself and Breath.
I realize see and understand instead of this negative comment I was longing for a positive comment and instead a positive comment I Became aware that I myself use this critical meanness meaning interpretation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I use this critical meanness meaning interpretation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed That I demand the user of the negative comment to use a positive comment and because of the lack of the use of the positive comment I allowed myself after I started blaming gave the person a negative comment.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself after I decided To Participate within the energy of blaming, that I gave myself permission critize the person which gave me a negative comment.
If and when I blame something or someone Then I Stop myself and Breath.
I realize see and understand if and when I blame something or someone its because of my interpretation after my observation.
I commit myself because I made a mistake, That I see this error as possible solutions to face my underlying need.
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