Day 571 mind pops-up, up and up.

This morning I woke up with pain in my Jaws. Some minutes later I was talking via WhatsApp and ask my interlocutor ‘what are my jaws telling me, which message contains pain in the Jaws? Then my interlocutor answered ‘ask your body.’ So I started questioning myself.

But first I had to give my question back to my interlocutor, and asked here,’ but I ask you (she is therapist) ‘what are my jaws telling me?’ and reiterated my question ‘Which message contains pain in the Jaws?

Reiterate questioning That is what the information in the mind does, repeat again and again.

After I Gave my question back to her she answered ‘Most people want to argue to get right and I had been in that energy after you gave me back your question. Cute not bright.’ I respect that I wrote back to her. But her answer ‘ask your body why you experience pain in your Jaws’, now I write about my investment.

I realize see and understand it’s emotional energy I hold in my Jaws which is Created by Fierceness and Perseverance.

So, with Fortitude I hold Stuck to the discussion in my mind. The reason for this decision, I want to be appreciated for my commitment that I did my work properly. Therefore I am still longing for apologies from my colleague. For context please see my previous blog.

He is responsible for my pain because he sent me the wrong email message. Without hearing and listening to my arguments. Without listening to the reason why. Without asking me for the choice I made. So I was Furious, because in my opinion he blamed me that I didn’t do my job properly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I first had to give my question back to my interlocutor because I was Longing for positive feedback and an answer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself after I asked ‘what are my jaws telling me, which message contains pain in my Jaws I started thinking why doesn’t she answer my question?’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I accuses my colleague at work en Also my WhatsApp interlocutor for not hearing me and my arguments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am thinking when people are not listening too my question or not listening too my arguments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself when I am thinking they do not respect me I realize see and understand this is disrespectful and my opinion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have pain in my Jaws because of the Discussion in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that the discussion in my mind tells me that my argument for the discussion I made is not had no Importance at all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am thinking my existence contains no Importance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I start arguing with people to show them that I own importance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that the thoughts of no Importance pops up anger and willingness as thoughts Fight with my colleague.

If and when I am thinking about fight my colleague, then I Stop my mind noise and Breath.

I realize see and understand that I want to achieve and proof myself that I have importance because I accepted and allowed myself to think and experience my self as ‘I’m not important.’

I realize see and understand that that I first had to give my question back to my interlocutor because I am interested in her way of thinking and the method she uses in her work.

I realize see and understand that when I am arguing, is my emotional willingness to get positive feedback from others instead of people starts complaining without asking me about the arguments of the decision I made which was the reason why my colleague sent me the email Message.

I realize see and understand that that I experience physical pain in my Jaws because of the emotional state within my unconsciousness as accepted existence created By the energy of arguments within the allowance arguing as words, thoughts and opinions I did not faced.

I commit myself that I will investing my mind with the support of writing, honest self-forgiveness, Stop myself and Breath, realize see and understanding into self directing, selfhonest Beingness walks.

I commit myself that I walk this process with the support of my Buddy, the Destonian Buddy’s of the past and EQAFE materials.

I commit myself that I instead of mind pops-up, up and up will and shall direct myself.

Destonians.

Day 570 I don’t matter.

I realize see and understand that I am using energy to defend and protect myself instead of standing as ‘who would I be? and not defending myself’. Good question!

To change something one had and I will first have to develop understanding ‘comprehension’; the ability to understand completely and be familiar with The influence of My perception when I observe a person or a specific situation.

With those facts, facing myself, with the knowledge that experience gives me, I have to Create awareness. It’s my responsibility be aware of the different aspects, from my manifested Inner mind experience, while I Get sensory stimulated, which determines my acceptances, which I told myself to be, as thoughts, emotions, feelings and the choices I made then. Which I assume and value as my consciousness and unconscious mind truth.

First I want to be aware of what I am doing and responding as my mind. I have to see, realize that I act as my accepted inner mind reactions. So to feel safe I Provoke people to gauge their reactions. I test people to see if they continue to support me Unconditionally because I unanimously Want to stand as human being, equally and one, as triple ‘A’, As And For All Life. FAAAL. For And As All Life. This Life is our equal and one Selfhonest Beingness.

I was talking with my buddy and after one of here supportive questions, What I respectfuland will respect, I told here ‘I don’t matter.’ Once you’ve listened to the tape, you’ll know that with these thoughts I’m Refers my mind acceptance because thinking comes from the conscious and unconsciousness, the mind. The mind aspects wich one allows to be as value system for example learned from the community within which one grew up or the family values or religious system with standard assumptions one has to follow for several reasons.

So as mind system I think ‘I don’t matter’ because of several assumptions which I have to face as my responsibility. This choice to stand and walk as my responsibility, I realize see and understand this choice I made, after my Buddy told me after our last chat, which also was our first chat. The Desteni Buddy Support which is a ‘equal two-way’ learning proces realizing that the power created by the energy generated from emotions, feelings and thoughts Directs our body, our Selfhonest Beingness.

Most people belief they only Are and exist as there thoughts, emotions and feelings. What you has to learn is understanding. Understand that you are this mind belief as acceptance and allowance, wich one can Stop and change with the Desteni tools and Buddy Support. Once you get there, you’re going to realize, see and understand, as the message from your Selfhonest Beingness, that you’re more than just your thoughts, emotions and feelings, which most of the time manifest your assumptions, characters and beliefs. You can change your direction to be the Directed principle as how you are meant to be be, equal and one with your Selfhonestly Beingness.

I commit myself: ‘I do matter’. Direct myself, Able to see what conscious basically is! Understanding the basics, what thoughts, emotions and feelings are. Those basic parts that constitutes your mind, within you body, your Selfhonest Beingness. Thus, the change and the directive principle that you can implement in realizing that you can change your experience when it comes to thinking and thoughts. The difference between thinking and looking.

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Destonians.