Dag 495 rejection my needs

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself and accepted that It was me who made the choice to be the character ‘rejection of my needs.’

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself that I have chosen that I neglect my Self-honesty because I did not communicate my needs.

I forgive myself that I allowed myself and accepted that I chose to swallow my needs.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself that I have abused myself.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself that I have taken the decision to abuse myself because I did not make my needs negotiable, ‘able tot discus and or speak out loud’.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself what I felt and feared, not speak out loud, not dared to make it public.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself and accepted that I manifested inner fear because I feared reprisals, which what could happen in response to the fact ‘if I would speak loud out my needs’.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself, because I realise that I see and understand that I have made the decision that I did not discuss my questions because I did not want to harm people in my life (my parents).

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself that I have made my decision to swallow my needs following my registration of what I saw and heard, that wath which could happen.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself that I have been watching and listening to what my parents did and said and I decided that I did not liked my needs.

I forgive myself that I have allowed and accepted myself after “what I heard and saw” manifested my memory experience based interpretation which I have accepted and allowed to act as my Truth’.

If and when I want to swallow my needs, I Stop and Breathe.

I realize see and understand that I made the choice to be the character in my mind ‘rejection of my needs.’, and therefore I made the decision that I neglect my Self-honesty because I did not communicate my needs and instead swallowed my needs and abused my self-honesty because I did not make my needs negotiable because I did not dared what I felt and feared to make it public and manifested inner fear because I feared reprisals, as the reprisals in my mind ‘which what could happen in response to the fact ‘if I would speak loud out my needs’.

I realize see and understand that I have made my decision that I did not discuss my questions because I did not want to harm people in my life (my parents), which was the best decision I could made at that moment because I made my decision to swallow my needs, following up my mind registration after what I saw and heard, in my mind possibly could happen, after I watched and listened to what my parents did and said and So I decided that I did not liked my needs any longer.

I realize see and understand after “what I heard and saw” my mind manifested my memory experience based interpretation which I have accepted and allowed myself to act as my Truth’.

I commit myself when I want to swallow my needs, I Stop and Breathe.

I commit myself Instead swallow in, that I start learning that I speak out my needs.

I commit myself in relation with others I will negotiate about my needs in a manner which is best for all life.

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