Day 520 fickle.

What “works” for everyone “and” What does not “work” for everyone”; That in itself is an “Act of Perfection “in the context of the design of the system; And that is the” first point “that you must do: be equal to the system – because the system is “perfect” in its design – and the “rules of design” follow the moment you – Let those “rules” become fickle = you are “less than” the System and then you immediately are “imperfect” in the context of your environment, the way we look at our environment is done by thoughts.

Thoughts are like lenses through which we look at our world. We are all more or less inclined to hold our own lens and determine how we interpret our experiences, and even who we think we are, let those “rules” become fickle = you become “less than” the system and then you are immediately imperfect in the context of your life and environment, which can manifest itself as pain.

The way how you deal with it, the alternative is that you experience your pain is to understand the meaning of your pain and the thoughts that cause it.

So, Let the “rules” of the system design become fickle then you fight against it and then you experience imperfection.

We are all more or less inclined to hold our own lens and determine how we interpret our experiences.

I realize, see and understand that I developed a coping strategy during my childhood.

The red thread that characterizes my survival strategy is: “I tend to be” what I think “that others want me to be.”This means that I started to behave inferior. Because of my accepted and allowed thoughts. This as a result of my thinking to which I subsequently adapted. “Which insinuated” I think what others want me to be because my perception and observation are correct. “I then linked my positive and negative consequences, thinking and reactions (behavior).

During a period of time I was longing for being dead. I became suicidal and wanted to throw myself under the train. So I called the police because I also was afraid and in a way behaved to get attention from others. Under pressure, after the advice from a police officer I went to my doctor. This decision I made after the police visit me three times.

The red thread that characterizes my survival strategy is: “I tend to be” what I think “that others want me to be.”

My doctor referred me to visit a psychologist. My recovery process ‘being aware’ started here. This “in response to the insistence of the police officer”. Until that time I knew “not yet aware” that I was addicted to alcohol and what the specific reason was for my daily alcohol use. That I used alcohol had a reason.

Being able to know, what exists as my mind existence. “A personal commitment ‘wanting to know’. The acceptance of what I allows myself to think. “The person starts the daily investigation” recognizing what daily events triggers as the reaction of his mind. “

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I developed my perception wherein I think what others want me to be. ” If and when I tend to think “I have to behave how others think”, I Breath and Stop.

I realize I see and understand that I have adapted to my assumption that I must behave the way others think I should behave, because I allow myself to submit to the authority of my inner thoughts which manifest fear because I want to achieve good peace within my environment because I want to avoid criticism and physical disbehave from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I have accepted my mind “rules” became fickle ‘I am “less than” the system and then I immediately are “imperfect”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I am thinking in the context of my environment, the way I look at myself as the conditions of my created mind environment, which I allowed myself to be as mind, done by my thoughts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself thinking “What I insinuated, I think what others want me to be because my perception and observation are correct. I and when I am thinking my insinuated thoughts are correct, I Stop and Breath. I realize see and understand that when I face a person or event in my environment, I am the one who is insinuated what is false and therefore longing fore or expecting what should be correct.

Insinuated doubt, I looked thru my lenses wrong which should be good or what is good will become wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that my accepted “rules of design” follow the moment I let those “rules” become fickle, and then I immediately have to realize see and understand that I as Beingness and Physical existence get less because I am fighting against the accepted rules of my mind, rules which tells me this moment should be this or that person should be acting as that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be the one who insinuates what is false and desires or expects what must be right. If and when I am mind insinuating my world, I Stop and Breath.

I commit myself that I take the responsibility to see and understand what I insinuated is the product of what I desire as words and thoughts what is never real in here, just let it go as the expectation and longings of my mind and just my physical in here.

Dag 510 Self-forgiveness what do I avoid what I want to achieve.

#SELFFORGIVENESS

Good reminder for us all:

On The Role of “Accept and Allow’ in Self Forgiveness.

“I accept” – means, “It’s the I that accepts” – as through receiving and becoming what has been accepted into and as the I – however this “I” has been unconsciously existing in and as pre-programming, now we’ve got to learn / understand what this “I” that we have become is existing as within acceptance; in this – we investigate what we are and have become as ‘who e are, what we live and how we live’ to see the acceptances we’ve become as this “I” and to accordingly change.

“I allow” – it is what flows from the I – in the moment and in the future that is the ‘road paved before the I/Self’ – it is what one create in one’s living as one’s acceptance; thus – in forgiving self within and as “accept and allow” one takes self-responsiblity within realisation as creator and creation, to be able to change self as creator and so one’s creation as self through and as the realisations that one expose as self through self forgiveness

– Susan Spies

When I be able change self as the acceptance what I created.

The response/responsibility/able to forgive by in me by self-forgiveness what responses in me as acceptance. In the beginning after my acceptance this ‘I’ has been unconsciously exist in me as pre-programming.

What did I do because I did? What was the reason?

The acceptance of choices is primarily the outcome of mind allowances. Information I created in relation to people or the environment in my life. Pictures, words and thoughts in my mind. Creators of characters as fear, anger, happiness etc.which manifest (acceptance) as assumptions, backchats, positive and negative habits.

Longings and expectations. One’s mind battery creation which influences the physical body.

But what will happen when this acceptance and allowance does not exist any longer? As the separation of what’s best for All Life.

http://desteniiprocess.com/