Day 604 Conflict Addiction

I realize see and understand that I as child was Submissive to a home situation that reflected a permanent disturbance. Manifesting the predictably unpredictable atmosphere of conflict, which I allowed in my head because I’ve been on the receiving end of the story – where another in my life came to tell me what they believe needs to change in my life because of these and these and these things they have observed in/about me. But what I received, became what I accepted which I allow myself give to others in my life and still doing now instead Stop the energy of conflict and living aware and peaceful.

where another in my life came to tell me what they believe needs to change in my life, in the same way in my mind I approach people and I tell them what I expect them to do.

She does not listen to my argument when I tell my buddy that I fineshed the lesson and then tells me to continue with one of the characters I already Finished with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I contend with uncertain temper After my buddy ignores my argument.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I approach people from out uncertainty

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be trapped in the idea that if I have to do something that is not aligned to what I want to do, I resist it and justify it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I got used to the fact That I’m in relation to other people primarily focus on conflict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I primarily focus at warzone situations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I primarily create warzone circumstances by irritating people in my environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I create such circumstances because I realize that I want to punish the people in the past which manifested A permanent warzone atmosphere.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I punish people because I am thinking that I deserve punishment instead of being happy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I don’t feel bad about myself because for now it’s OK to realize that I have accepted and allowed myself that I feel Disconnected with my innocence Beingness. My mind assumption refers to the fact that I usually strive to maintain an internal coherence and agreement between my beliefs, values and behavior. Disconnected because I am in decline in the conflict i know, which I would prefer to avoid.

I forgive myself myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I not avoid conflict Communication because I first have to realize that I got used to it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself instead Stopping my reaction that I mentioned what was on my mind.

If and when I am thinking and then want to react, I will Stop myself and Breath. I realize see and understand that I want a reaction from my buddy after I sent messages which are not Answered yet, which is ok for me.

I commit myself that I will proceed process.

Additional Resources:

Destonians– Chat with people from all over the world walking the Desteni process

EQAFE.com – The Library of Existence – every question answered

Desteni.org – Research and investigation of human consciousness/human nature

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

Desteni I Process – Life Skills & Self-Mastery Course

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

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Day 587 gossip implies?

Facing my point of view about gossip I became aware when writing about a colleague at work, who was not present during my talks with another colleague. My words and point of view as the conclusion I made which I realize, see and understand became aware of during my writing.

Gossip, making mistakes, being humiliated, being called out, being scrutinized, criticized, gossiped on, being on the receiving end of gossip, learning from humiliation, taking humiliation personally, idea of oneself that leads to humiliation.

In fact what happens during the idea of gossip it leads back to oneself as the acceptance and allowance of the existence of the negative which I believe and participate within.

In my blog startingpoint I realize see and understand that when I’m realizing a point of view about blaming someone it is form of gossip. Information of my mind whit which I want to achieve that I Convince myself. When I tried to impress people what is the point I suppress beyond that I need to impress? The need to impress is because one of my moodswings, my emotion regulation problem is procrastinate something I has to selfforgive. It’s selfish if I wouldn’t. Procrastination is doing something against my better judgment. ‘It is self-harm’ and self-awareness is a key part of why procrastination makes me feel so rotten. Because when I start gossiping I realize see and understand that its all about me where I do and did not took responsibility for yet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that realizing a point of view about blaming someone it is form of gossip.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that the points of gossip includes Information of my mind whit which I want to achieve, instead others, that I want to Convince myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that the self-preferrance construct within my mind allow to Convince myself that others should like me in a way I accept self-liking exist as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that That I use gestures, my looks and sounds to show and display my sense of dignity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I use my mind gossip and perform my peacock showcase, value myself higher to convince others.

If and when I get frustrated can not convince others to Preciate my performance, then I Stop myself and Breath.

I realize see and understand that I commit myself before I want to get people on my hand I Stop myself and Breath and investigate The reason I am experience frustration, anxiousness or annoyed.

Additional Resources:

Destonians– Chat with people from all over the world walking the Desteni process

EQAFE.com – The Library of Existence – every question answered

Desteni.org – Research and investigation of human consciousness/human nature

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

Desteni I Process – Life Skills & Self-Mastery Course

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words