Dag 492 Anger Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself that I experience A strong Emotional charged energy of Annoyance, Displeasure, or Hostility when I am thinking about a specific person in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and Allowed myself that I react with the energy of Anger.

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself when I experience Anger that I allowed myself that I walk away, out of contact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and Allowed myself that when I walk out of contact that I also ignore other people who are not involved in this specific matter, and walk away in general, not only just when the person who triggers my Anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and Allowed myself that when I experience Inner Anger, that in general I push people Away from me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and Allowed myself that my experience of Anger is created by thoughts, thoughts once I allowed myself exist as memory, after interpret experiences wherein I created MY Accepted Energy of Anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and Allowed myself participating into the negative Anger energy, which I still creating in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and Allowed myself when I walk away out of contact, my strategy pops-up, partipating into the walking away and Ignoring people Character, and then see how the people I Ignore will react.

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself that I investigate people’s reactions after I ignore them how they will react.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and Allowed myself that I Ignore people, Just pretend the other one doesn’t exist, because I do not really think that I unconditional exist as a person, but only exist as a subject who fit into external value conditions, created by others, which I allowed myself to be as the expected expectations from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and Allowed myself that I do not just ignore the person who triggers my anger but also other people, which results that I avoid also going to my voluntering workplace, faking that I’m sick.

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself that I do not feel strong enough to ignore my inner resistance that I experience in relation to this person, and not allow myself to stop it.

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself that I don’t feel taken seriously by this person after I instruct him with the the common working method information, with which we work, then I think the person Just pretend I don’t exist.

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself that I think the person Just pretend that I don’t exist, After I want to teach him the correct way of working.

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself because I experience Anger, then react hostile after the person ask me a question, I just pretending the person does not exist.

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself that I experience resistance when thinking that I will met the person again.

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself thinking ‘this person is not telling me his intentions what he wants to learn.’

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself thinking ‘I am not told what is the intention of my guidance when we work together.’

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself thinking the treatment which the person gives me is not honest, this person is not honest in his communication, therefore I think something is not correct and I realize, see and understand now ‘then I will react with hostile’.

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself  when I am thinking the person is not honest when communicating with me then I react suspicious and pull myself back out of contact.

I forgive myself that I have Accepted and Allowed myself when I work with this person that I experience the energy of dishonesty and then I ignore the person and just walk away.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and Allowed myself that I experience the energy of annoyance after I am thinking the communication of this person is not open and honest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and Allowed myself thinking the behavior of this person reflects Unfairness and hypocritical behaviour, because I think this person is dishonest and unreliable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and Allowed myself that I from other people expect that they are reliable ‘an Appointment is an Appointment’ and when people in general behave and act this way, I think that they are reliable and honest, so I can feel safe and secure, lol.

I realize see and understand I’am in general observing/testing people’s physical reactions and there behave, because I ‘am scared that they will not taken my contribution serious and because ot that, for sure, they will start laughing, which feels like they Ignore my Beingness.

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Dag 491 Irritated

I am internally experience irritation.

I am internally experience the energy of annoyance and irritation when I am thinking about a specific person in my external world. I realize see and understand that I have been stimulated last weeks by a specific person in my actions and attitudes. I realize that there are several people in my life who showed me my Anger and internally energy experience of irritation and annoyance.

But what is actually the lead of my annoyance?

One of these people is a colleague within the organization where I work as a volunteer. He gives more attention to my colleague and ignores me. A synonym of annoyance is anger. When I experience anger I use alcohol. Now I write my experience I do not condemn myself. In the past I often condemned the use of alcohol. Which was the reason too drink more and more alcohol and did not investigate my real experience of anger. The knowledge of Anger starting point. I am thankful that there are people who reflect my anger.

My Anger ‘character’ is an emotion that can occur if I have the idea that I am thwarted or opposed, when my territory is accessed or my boundaries are exceeded. A territory with boundaries.

To the memory of anger I link anger which express itself in deeds, and anger that can express itself in words. Anger in the form of deeds express itself as physical violence: beating, kicking and hand fighting.

So I created a territory including boundaries.

Showing me my:

  • thwarted experience.
  • opposed experience.
  • peoples will is my law.
  • people never will respect my needs.
  • to respect whats best for all.

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