Dag 349 Living word: Health

How to use Living words?

How I lived and after re-difined a word starts with I have allowed and accept myself I’ve give a word my specific meaning. So, redefining words is walk the process of redefining a specific word into a living word into real-Here-time when walking this specific and effective what’s best for All Life word. The focus within this exercise is opening words and identifying how I have interpreted and lived a word in my mind as my world reality.

I realize my Health proces was a journey like rafting in a Canoe ignorant and depending off the rocks and swirling water of the river. De Canoe represents the system I had to trust. The unpredictable water and waterfalls represent my fear expecting threat and not trust, my expectation, rescuers and psycologist within this system because I never ever trust predictable care which I longing for. People like me in this stage of proces, are angry and fearful because security offering helpers, this approach is unknown.

Ik realize and understand, because I walked this stage, Dip Lite offers them/me a secure environment, do the necessary walk talk (write) introspection because in this stage of the proces I was busy thrusting people. So first had to trust myself by open up in my tempo the suppressed unfulfilled fairs, expectations and desires finding reliability in my unreliable inner world. In this stage I did not need more information as usal such as people telling me what to do, give me psychological advise and speaking words I never ever heard before. Do you understand what I an telling was my biggest pitfall to overcome.

Also evualuating dictionary definitions and asks myself How I lived this word on my specific way? Is this an adequate definition after uncovering dimensions of a word that one may not have previously considered; and to ultimate use all of this information to develop an approach of how one can make the word part of self-supportive self-directing words whats best for all.

So the word  Health I walked before was already charged with energy. After my Selfhonest corrective investigation I trust myself to walk the open up nude-solution word, without polarized charged energy. Before redefining this charged word exist as me into me as energy existence into my consciousness mind battery, control navigation existence within my physical body.

Self-supportive life the word Health means I’ve first focus on the proces of redefining my meaning, longing and expectation charged words and images charged polarity energy within the word ‘Health’.

In Dutch language the word Health means gezondheid.

Gezondheid, Ge/ik wil zonder zonde, heel zijn. I want to be a being Without sin.

Zonder fouten. With out mistakes. I have to encharge the With, out of me. The with represent the mistakes I made.

Heel zijn. So the With in mistakes: I had to focus on my mistakes first. Longing want encharge my mistakes as energy out my mindsystem. I want to be – Within me aware as Equal and one awareness human being.

Zonder gebreken. Without blemish. Dus ik wil perfect zijn. So I want to be perfect.  Waardoor ik kan voorkomen, dat anderen mij niet kunnen aanspreken op mijn gebrek. So I can avoid that others recall my lack. This lack is already as lack existence With-in me as expectation not yet out, exist into me. So I see and understand my expectation is my longing. I expected the worse and most less (lest) care so in my mind bin looking the worst, not trusting the helping others. Into phychic care the trust others is the most important factor. Trust others – trusting myself, Desteni offers this en surroundings within the Dip area and buddy support. Because the Buddy’s bin there.

Because why would ore should I avoid something which not exist into me? So I want to be perfect so I can not avoid thoughts that remind me of some mind absence. So what is my mind absence into me, this presupposes my lack of mental health, telling/explain me? This ex-former-plan, which I’ve used as blame complain selfpity myself game as not perfect, with blemish, with sin, with mistakes, my Original awareness was telling me.  I want to be without the blemish, sin and mistakes which I also accepted and allowed myself as charged within me energy.

So while any idea of what I want to achieve, speak in front an audience, which I think is possitive, I think the negative that this people start laughing towards me, so I think I can not speak infront public. So I avoid the risk within my mind which thought generates my negative loaded negative emotion motivation start laugh about me which reaction reminds me I made a mistake because that’s why they start doing this and through their laugther behavior I see and understand into me the assumption present: they do not respect my vulnerability.

The first thought they abuse my vulnerability starts at moments and times when socializing was assumed. So socializing in my mind is negatively charged. Within the private family atmosphere during the Christmas dinner, dinner on Sunday as grandparents visited us the probability of threat was present into my mind expextation.

My Original health awareness was nagative charged when I was a young guy. Later at school I had a negative trauma experience with the school teacher. In my thinking I don’t trust women. I’m expecting they will harm me because I do not trust them because they do not protect me. Into my mind the lack of women trust is prominent as negatively charged suppression, running into my mind when I speak with women because I am expecting you will harm me. I distrust your smile so I focus on melancholic expression and depression which depressed the smile. I laughed to flee my depressed fair beingness.

Is this an adequate definition? Yes for this moment I realize, see and understand that I lived the word Health in my mind, it was negatively charged because I expected the negative within my understanding, charged with negative energy exist into  my consciousness mind.

I want to live without sin means my thoughts focus at the existence sin into me as negative charged thoughts. Because iff I want the positive the word sin as negative charged sense still exist into me in my mind. Towards the negative I place my investigation, not the positive Health, because first I have to Uncover the negative within me.

First I have to encharge the unhealthy sin into me. What I do at the moment I want to connect me with people I start ivestigating people reactions and drop out afterwards I have a reason supposing, they are unreliable, disloyal, not conditional concerned. In their guidance and attention they are incomplete bacause I primarily focus on lack and the negativity, as me into me, my negatively charged supposition expectation people to whom I show my vulnerability are unreliable.

So first Investigate – to ungate myself – within the safe Desteni Dip Lite surroundings, with assist and support of one own Buddy, the Destonian gatekeeper.

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